Note to Self

This is NOT a suicide note
With that said
Am I free of speech?
Or did I simply just say
"please come and kill me"

No, that is not it
For of course
I'm not satisfied with this
And I must ask you
"would you be?"

Would you settle for
Loving those who cannot love you
Maybe the world has grown smaller
Yet I cannot say to your face
"I love the way you..."

But what do I love
I hardly know you
Or maybe I do know who you are
But not how you would say
"how do you do?"

So do I think of ending my life?
Oh yes, every day
And I've decided on this
My weapon of choice I say
"to keep on living"

What if I am a liar
And a really lousy one at that
Do you really care
If the title would be
"This is NOT a suicide note"