Treachery of Self

I just want to go
let this take forever
lead me to sever
all of my ties
can't handle this form of life
it's way too struck down

I'd like to surrender
give my will to whoever
would use it the best
and when it comes to the rest
can't seem to matter to me
I'd just like to see
some use for me

but put back to sleep
I dream, I remember
it might have been september
maybe even december
at some point in time
I was more than matter
a whole person, the latter
of treason and reason
but now I don't know.